april 27well, hello, hello!! welcome to the grand opening of doctor's devoted. I've been mulling over making a dedicated website for my relationship. there are so many incredible sites out there dedicated to others' relationships, and they have inspired me greatly. I'm not very good at coding, which I hope to change eventually. late 2000s neopets can only teach one so much...!
I'll be going over my thoughts in greater detail on other pages. I know that I have a strawpage, a carrd, and a tumblr blog, but I thought having one specific space where my relationship with Xander is the complete and total focus (with a few interjections from me, to let people know me better) would be a wonderful thing to do. I'll be leaving the divided areas down below so I can just copy 'em over when I make new sections.
so anyone, welcome, have fun, and thanks for checking out my silly little website!! ♡
april 28good morning! I'm writing this at 3 am. it's been chilly here, but rain continues to elude us here in the Midwest... we got a few sprinkles after church on Sunday, but nothing substantial. not great for many obvious reasons, but I love rain, so I've been bummed every day we haven't gotten it after the weather apps have promised a 90% chance. c'est la vie, I suppose.
today I'm going to work on the blog archive page. I've decided to make a page for each month instead of separate pages for each and every entry, because having a million pages to sort through would probably not be good for my brain and thus make me not want to work on this site.
anyway, I plan on going to the coffee shop this morning to read. I've been trying to make it a point to go out and least once on my 6 day-off stretches. I went out on Thursday and tried new coffee. now that I'm older, I find myself liking coffee more and more. I still want the coffee to taste sweet, but I used to absolutely hate the tiniest taste of coffee, and now I can drink it no problem. it's better for me to drink that for caffeine instead of soda, which I drink way too much of.
I need to try and eat better in general. I want Xander to be proud of me, and so I try to do better for myself and for his sake. in particular I try to drink more water. I can imagine him scolding me if I try to go for another soda... well, I don't mind his scoldings. he would want me to be healthy!
I go back to work tomorrow so hopefully I can get my sleep schedule fixed up tonight. I think I'll spend tonight watching movies with Xander -- I can always use his snuggles.
thanks for reading!
april29hi, everyone! it's about 5 am. I go back to work tonight, so I tried to fix my sleep schedule... to some avail. not sure how I'll sleep today, but that's what they make energy drinks for, right?
I tried to work on a video about Annihilation tonight, but the words just wouldn't come to me. I got a little frustrated with myself and decided to spend some time with Xander in Gloomwood. I played for awhile 'til motion sickness got to me, since I was also watching youtube. oh, well.
I am a bit nervous for not this weekend, but the weekend after. my sibling is graduating college, and I feel... well, a lot. they aren't my baby sibling anymore, but they'll always be my baby sibling, yknow? especially since they'll be leaving the country this fall, to pursue a higher degree. and the graduation ceremony itself is going to be long, with a ton of people... I'll have to mentally prepare. I won't be able to bring my Xander plushie with me to the ceremony, but I have a bracelet that reminds me of his eyes, so I'll wear that for comfort.
also, apparently my site has 1200 views...? not sure if those views are just me clicking "view" after every edit, or real views. if they're real... well, hi!
hopefully, this upcoming work week will be kind!
april 30good evening! may starts tomorrow, and it's a little weird. I feel like this year has flown by. that's probably because of the absolute cavalcade of bullshit that's been going on in the world... I try to keep up with everything but sometimes, my brain demands a break. I've limited myself to 5 minutes of news a day, just so I don't go insane. I also make sure to do my hobbies, and I try to remember that there is good in this world, and it's worth fighting for.
anyway, I'm at work for the next week, and I'm trying to prepare for my sibling to arrive. they're moving home for the summer, til they go to school abroad. our female cats will be downstairs together. last time, Stella and Teddy didn't get along, so I'm kind of nervous... I just don't want Stella to regress like she did. for those who may not know, I nearly had to rehome Stella due to severe bathroom problems. we had a "come to Jesus" moment, so to speak, and she got better and is doing amazing now. I just don't want her to backslide, because my mom has made it clear I'll have to give Stella up if her problems start again.
I'm still looking after my sibling's rats. Cashew has chilled out some and lets me hold her, and Macadamia lets me scritch her head a little. I'm always so afraid of hurting them by accident, even though I always touch them as gently as possible. I know rats are tougher than they look, but still. I just don't like hurting animals, even by accident. I cry whenever I accidentally step on one of my kitties' tails. my sibling will be bringing the rats' big cage home, so I can get them settled there.
anyway... I say that a lot, don't I? well, anyway (again), I'm hoping to spend some time with Xander tonight. I work alone except on the nights my night shift coworker and I "switch", and between maintenance and patients, my downtime is my own. I've gotten many crochet projects done... and I have more I need to finish.