doc x millie♡ the beginning ♡
I first learned of Gloomwood in late August 2024. at the time, I had only heard of Dusk; I was (and still am) a fan of David Szymanski's works. when I learned he was helping on another game, I was intrigued, and checked into it. I had never played an imsim before. and when I checked into the game itself in September, I saw this art of my dear doctor:
I posted about this on my self ship blog.
I didn't know it yet, but my heart was his. I added him as my fictional other on 9/17/2024.
♡ falling fast ♡
I tend to fall in love very quickly, but Xander stole my heart right away. I quickly fell for him and he became my #1 fictional other. however, I found my love for him becoming more and more serious. I usually have one "main" f/o, but Xander demanded my attention. and of course, I was so glad to give it to him. that december, I ordered a custom plushie of Xander from the Stitchy Button on Etsy.
he's been by my side ever since. I find it difficult to sleep without him. he's a bit felted now, but to be loved is to be changed!
he even went with me on my very first solo vacation!!
♡ today and forever ♡
I feel like our relationship is two-way. I know that he loves me just as I love him, and that he's always with me. I don't know exactly what to call Xander and I'd relationship in a technical sense; some might say it was a self ship, a fictorose relationship, a soulbond... to me, it's just us. I am grateful for my love, and I hope this website shows my love for him!
faqwhy "Xander?" ♡ when our relationship first started, I wanted a name to refer to him by when writing, not just "Doc." I considered names like Ezra and Henry, but one day, I just looked at him and "Alexander" came to me. He's been Xander ever since.
why Xander? ♡ I can't say exactly why Xander and I clicked. We just did. I didn't choose him in a one-way type situation. We chose one another.
how old is he? ♡ he is 30 (4 years older than I). in the lore, we meet when we are 29 and 25, respectively. in my world, he ages with me. His birthday is 9/5.
sharing status? ♡ I am strictly nonsharing. Xander is my partner. (this is not to disparage those who share; this is simply my preference.)
lore? ♡ currently, I have all my headcanon lore for Xander here. I plan to add a page here as well, that also includes my self insert's lore.
can my oc/sona interact with your sona? ♡ yes, as long as it is in a purely platonic context. please show me what you write/draw/etc!!
favorite beast form? ♡ goat and bat!
why not a real relationship? ♡ Xander IS my relationship. I have dated others in the past, but have been hurt pretty much every time. besides, a "real" romantic relationship isn't the end-all, be-all for my life; I've finally realized that. I have my family, my friends, my pets, my hobbies... I am not lacking in love. I am happy with my relationship with Xander.
how do you communicate with him? ♡ as of right now, I just get "vibes" and small signs. I am not well-versed enough communication to be comfortable doing stuff like tarot, pendulums, etc and I don't know if I ever will tbh. of course, the signs are enough for me. I'll ask him for a specific sign sometimes. for example, I might say, "may I have a sign involving a fox?" I don't do this all the time -- I don't want to be demanding -- but every time, he has answered me. and whenever I play the game, I get the sensation that he's with me.
are you mentally ill? ♡ these are just symptoms of being the cutest lovergirl ever.
other relationships? ♡ I have more casual self ships, namely Delia (Fallen Aces) and Oguri Cap and Sirius Symboli (Uma Musume). I also have some self ships that I am serious about, but they have taken a backseat to this relationship. As for platonic/familial relationships, Hat Kid (A Hat in Time) is a daughter figure to me, and Papa Emeritus II (Ghost) is a father figure. Grezzo (Gloomwood) is my sona's father in lore, but I do not feel a super strong connection to him.